Wednesday, March 30, 2011
I received a message on facebook mentioning my blog and I realized that I haven't posted in awhile! Things are all over the place around here. I got fired on Friday. After 6 months at a place where I got along with everyone... except my boss. And in the end, that's who mattered!!! But alas, I feel very relieved to be out of there. It was so irritating to have to play her little games and watch her dote on the new girls who were size 0s (the only reason I mention this is because my boss would CONSTANTLY talk about how tiny they are @@). I was making my sales goals and EXCEEDING THEM! Which just goes to show 2 things in my opinion: Some times living in a no fault state really sucks and playing the game is just as important as performance. I am not good at being fake to people so sometimes I really suck at the whole game thing!!! I wasn't rude, but I wasn't constantly complimenting her and brining in baked goodies like the other 2 gals. Shoot, I am not supposed even be near baked goodies right now!!! haha I feel confident that God has a plan for me, and the Hilton was good for what it was (afterall their insurance helped me get my surgery!!!) but just as a temporary thing. I am resuming my attempt to get a CA state teaching credential which was put on hold a few times because I needed a job, and then I had surgery, etc etc etc. So I start my classes April 4. It's one class a month so that should be fine. Also, staying home is actually BETTER for weightloss!!!! I can go to the gym during the day and Benji does ok in the daycare... I am only there for an hour max, so that works out well. Also, chasing him around is much better than sitting at a desk all day. And I am able to clean my house in bits and pieces. So All is well. I have already lost 3 lbs putting me at 196. I had gone down to 197 and then back up again and I have been hovering around 198-199 for a week or two and I tell ya, it's irritating!!! So glad to have broken the stall with some good old fashioned exercise. Another amazing thing is how much easier exercise is when you aren't 250lbs. I did the elliptical for 30 minutes without even really sweating. Yes I was going as fast as I should have, but it wasn't the "i'm gonna die" feelign that I used to have when I was heavier. It is definitely true what they say about losing weight motivating you and also making exercise more enjoyable. It's a lot more enjoyable to feel a little physical challenge as opposed to panting and thinking you're gonna die!!! I wanted to go back yesterday but it wasn't in the cards so instead I made it a point to clean clean clean. We have a 2 story house so I went up the stairs a ton and vaccuumed,c hanged linens, etc. Basically anything I could do to keep me moving! The house is big so I created a little goal for myself of one room a day, although the kitchen and living room are every day projects that overwhelm me. The living room in particular.. aka toy central!!! Also, after nearly 5 years, hundreds of arguments and back and forths, breaking up, etc etc etc.... Roger and I are talking about getting married. HOLY WOWZA right?! As I told Roger, the only sucky part is people's reaction of "Are you sure you want to do this?" as opposed to "CONGRATULATIONS!!!!" but as my aunt says "Better a happy ending than a sad one!". A few friends have asked me how this all came to be and my best answer is to watch the movie "Fireproof"... that storyline is how it came to be and on day 43 I got flowers and a card saying that he wasn't giving up. The challenge was supposed to end on day 40. We have a lot of work to do but I am optimistic and despite the fact that we are both crazy, I do love him. So... if we make it to the altar it'll be in July and there actually probably won't be an altar... it'll be outdoors. With a fab Hawaiian honeymoon to follow in August.. that part I am already planning of course! You all know me and my love affair with Hawaii! So as I started out, this update was long overdue. Lots of change, lots of excitement. Tears of joy, tears of sorrow, stress, anxiety, happiness, etc etc etc. The kids are great, I am loving spending more time with Benjamin (although I swear he is a boy through and through... Aidan never climbed and got into things like he does!) and thanks to my sleeve, I will be the beautiful, blushing, (insert THIN!) bride that I have always wanted to be!!!